Only 9 days have passed this year and yet so many things have happened. I'm mentally drained. Had a conversation with R the other day and he did agree that all of these takes a whole lot of energy. It zaps us dry and by the end of the day, you just wanna crawl and hide and hope things will get better as soon as possible.

My mind is everywhere and my heart have been beating soo fast. At times it feels as tho it might just pop out of my chest anytime soon. I want this to be over. I really do....